~ Old Friend ~

Where have I been? That's what the emails are saying. Where are you, why haven't you been writing....are you dead?

Not yet, maybe next week.

I've been in my bed, or sitting in my backyard. Why?

Well it would seem that what I previously thought was my bad luck for having migraines may be something else. I'm scheduled for an MRI, there might be something in there, or not....we'll see. I've given them my blood, they've done a PAP ( that doesn't have anything to do with the head thing, but I wasn't expecting it when I went to the doctor....one of those "since you're here") and they even weighed me (crap) and told me I'm a bit shorter than I thought (great, shrinking already) And now we wait. It's been a week, I was told they were putting in my claim for a head scan as urgent, it's been a week. Would hate to see how long I'd have to wait if I wasn't considered urgent. In the time it's taking I could have put a lamp up to my head and looked into the mirror to see if anything showed up.

So why the sudden need for medical attention?

Well, the symptoms are all the time now, the dizziness being a primary one. And the "awareness" of my left side, and there is the numbing of my limbs and tongue, likely not a good things. I have all the symptoms of a stroke, but I've also been to the stroke specialist before....nothing came of it.

What's causing all this fun and excitement? Well that's the big question. Maybe it's stress, and I'm therefore completely cutting back my company...like to nothing....I've already started, people are proud of my progress. Maybe I have extra fluid on my brain, I am an over achiever, so that's a possibility as well....can't have the regular amount of fluid, need to outdo those around me. Might just be migraines......there are a number of possibilities....some scarier than others. But no use worrying about the unknown, so we'll wait and see. My doctor checked off all the little boxes on the blood test sheet, except the one that I usually give blood for....pregnancy....that's a good thing, that box need not be checked again.

So we wait...for a week now. I call the office, they assure me that we're still waiting...cause I forgot what I was calling for apparently.

I do nothing lately....or at least I do nothing from my perspective. Which might be an altered perspective, not just cause of the messed up head thing, but because I'm accustom to always being out of control busy. My friend K says that I don't know how to have free time. It's possible. I try to accomplish 1-2 things a day now, it's driving me crazy, I'm dealing with it. I've also been reading, a lot. Some worth mentioning, others not.

So while we wait for the head shrinker to look me over, other things have happened.

My brother got married last weekend, we're very excited. He was dashing, she was beautiful...very nice, I'm very happy for them both.

My other brother moved home from China. He was also dashing at the wedding, he didn't have anyone beautiful with him, he's working on that issue.

T finished Lacrosse. Fun while it lasted, but this house has gone to pot with us being gone every single weekend. The fans are also tired of hearing us scream and yell and coach from the fan box. Yes, we're "Those" parents.

J added some more words to his repetoire. All good children have Diego as one of their key words. We've also added No, Go and Puppy. Juice, cheese and mom were always favorites, now we have teeth, bum, eyes and ears....he can say them all but doesn't always keep them straight when pointing them out. This provides lots of hillarity to his siblings, you can imagine why.

B had some stress filled days at work as the parent company of his business went bankrupt. We should be fine, don't send food yet.

Doug kissed me, I've waited a long time, it finally happened. Don't get worked up, you have to know the history of this. My husband is safe and still #1.

A new sushi place opened in my town. I love sushi, I haven't had a chance to try it out yet....with the whole bed thing being my top activity of the day....will get there.

Dentist tomorrow, that should be exciting. Also had Accupuncture this week, she also said there is something wrong with my head....but people have been telling me this for years.

Okay, I think I'm finally getting tired. The problem with this new low key lifestyle is I'm not all that tired at bed time. I've rested and napped all day, this is nothing new, it's just dark now.

Toodles.